Really confused. I can’t handle this… I can’t….

Somehow, it’s like God tries to remind me this:

That one should choose wisely, not just based on world’s view but heart’s view. By heart, it means, by conscience. Not just ordinary conscience, but religious conscience.

The heart wants what heart wants (yaeyaaalaaaah). Fantasy always makes it hard for heart to decide what’s right and wrong. But sometimes, one’s consciousness come and knockin’. Telling us that something’s not right.

Secrets and truth has its own package, this one is a bitter weird and strange at the same time… This secret, this truth, is too much to handle for a pure-innocent-loving heart.